frustration..

I feel unhappy with life in general at the moment. Don't get me wrong, I know that I have it pretty good and it could be a hell-of-a-lot worse, but still...

Everyday I go to work and I do my best, but there isn't much of anything to do to give my best to. I strive for more by showing initiative and do all that I can, but the fact of the matter is that I'm at the bottom of this tottem pole, and the rungs on the ladder of sucess are too spread apart from each other. Everything just seems farther out of reach and I feel more insignificant everyday...

But thanks to Leena for her ability to shine some light on the subject. She's made me realize that this time may have been given to me as a period to organize my life and decide what I really want out of life. In the aspects of a career choice, my home life, my relationships, and myself as an individual.

I think I'll start by getting the new iPhone 3G S as a tool to set myself straight. I can't wait the week and a half till I can get my hands on one. Hopefully they don't sell out before I do. I'm actually considering camping out overnight in front of AT&T. Bible!

Anywho, today was a totally insignificant day for me and I'm determined to change that. It's between finding a new job search, hitting the gym, or organizing my life/priorities...

I'll update when I've made some sort of dent of change.

xoxo *